Chapter 4 - The Arrival
The discharge on Friday afternoon was swift and clinical. Brenda Alvarez met us at the maternity ward doors with a folder full of temporary placement orders, safety stipulations, and clinic appointment dates.
"Her toxicology screen came back negative for opioids and amphetamines," Brenda said, handing me the discharge envelope. "Whatever Jenna was doing in those final weeks, she stayed clean enough to keep the placenta functional. It’s a small miracle."
"Small miracles are enough," Marcus said. He was carrying the infant car seat, his knuckles white around the handle.
Inside the seat, Clara was swaddled in the pastel blanket from the garage box. She weighed precisely six pounds. Her skin was pink, peeling slightly at the wrists, and her eyes were a dark, indeterminate slate gray. She had dark hair that curled against her crown, exactly like Marcus’s baby pictures that Evelyn kept in velvet frames.
When we carried her through our front door, the house was unnaturally quiet. Sam and Toby, seven and four, were sitting on the living room rug surrounded by building blocks, their eyes wide as owls.
"Don't yell," Leo commanded his younger brothers from the hallway, acting the part of the seasoned older brother. "She's brand new."
Marcus set the carrier down on the low coffee table. He knelt beside it, his hands hovering over the buckles before carefully unlatching them. "Come here, boys. Gently."
Sam crawled over on his knees, his chin resting on the edge of the table. "She's so small. She doesn't have any teeth."
"You didn't have teeth either, dummy," Leo muttered, though he was leaning over Marcus’s shoulder, staring at her tiny fists with rapt attention.
Toby, four years old and always loud, reached out one sticky index finger. Before I could stop him, he touched the baby’s palm. Clara’s fingers instinctively curled around his knuckle, gripping with surprising force.
Toby’s jaw dropped. "Mom! She caught me!"
"She did," I whispered, tears burning my eyes. "She's strong."
That first night was an exercise in forgotten rhythms. The sound of a newborn crying at two in the morning had been absent from our home for four years. But when Clara woke, wailing with the thin, reedy cry of the motherless, it wasn't Marcus who stirred first.
My feet hit the floor before my conscious mind registered the noise. I walked into the nursery, lifted her from the crib, and pressed her against my chest. She was warm, her tiny heart hammering against my collarbone like a trapped sparrow.
I sat in the wooden rocker Marcus had varnished three days before. I offered her the bottle, and she latched hungrily, her little forehead furrowing with effort.
"I have you," I whispered into the quiet dark. "I have you, Clara."
Marcus appeared in the doorway twenty minutes later, his hair disheveled, wearing only his sweatpants. He leaned his shoulder against the doorframe, watching us in silence.
"She looks like her," he said quietly.
"She looks like you," I replied.
He walked over, kneeling beside the rocker, and rested his chin against my knee. "The police went through Jenna’s room on Tenth Street today. They gave me a plastic bag with her things. A few shirts, a cheap makeup kit, and an envelope addressed to me."
My rocking slowed. "An envelope?"
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"It had our home address on it," Marcus said, his voice flat with suppressed emotion. "Postmarked three months ago. She never mailed it. Inside was an ultrasound printout. Just the picture, Maya. And on the back, she wrote four words: *Keep her from him.*"
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