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Chapter 3 - The Recovery

Waking up from general anesthesia is not like waking from sleep; it is like being dragged through wet clay by your collarbones.

The first sensation was the dry, burning ache in my throat from the endotracheal tube. The second was the heavy, bandaged incision across my lower abdomen—a horizontal line of fire that pulled whenever my diaphragm expanded. The third was the steady, rhythmic beep... beep... beep of a pulse oximeter clipped to my right index finger.

The room was dark. The heavy roller shades were drawn against the morning sun, leaving only a six-inch sliver of pale gray light cutting across the white linoleum floor.

In the corner, illuminated by the soft green glow of an infusion pump, sat Theo.

He had removed his tuxedo jacket and his tie. His white shirt was rumpled, the top three buttons undone, the cuffs rolled back to his elbows to reveal the dark hair on his forearms. On his lap rested a heavy leather three-ring binder, its pages covered in yellow sticky notes and blue highlighter tabs. Beside his chair, resting on the floor, was his phone, its screen lighting up every four seconds with silent, vibrating notifications.

RENATA (14) BIANCA (8) MASON REED (5) UNKNOWN SENDER (22)

I tried to speak, but only a dry, whistling click escaped my lips.

Theo’s head snapped up instantly. The binder was set onto the nightstand before I could blink, and he was beside the bed, his broad hand cupping the side of my face, his thumb smoothing the dry skin beneath my lower eyelid.

"She's alive," he said.

He answered the only question that mattered before I could form the words.

"She’s alive, Naomi. Five pounds, eleven ounces. Thirty-six centimeters. She’s in the NICU on level six, breathing on room air with an oxygen hood. Her APGAR was eight at five minutes. She has your chin. She has your stubborn, miserable chin."

A strangled sob tore through my chest, the pain of the surgical staples forgotten as the relief hit me like a physical wave. I caught his wrist with both hands, pulling his palm against my mouth, kissing the calloused pad of his thumb over and over until the cotton sheets were soaked with my tears.

"Can I... can I see her?" I croaked.

"In an hour," Theo said softly. "Keller wants your core temperature above ninety-eight before they put you in the transfer chair. You lost nearly three units, Naomi. They had to give you two bags of packed cells while you were on the table."

"The placenta?"

"Separated forty percent," he replied, his face darkening with a grim, mathematical coldness. "Keller told me that if we had arrived six minutes later, the oxygen deprivation would have been irreversible. If we had stayed in that ballroom... if we had waited for an ambulance in traffic..."

He didn't finish the sentence. He didn't need to.

I leaned my head back against the pillow, watching the dust motes dance in the sliver of gray morning light. My hand moved down beneath the blankets, feeling the heavy, flat gauze tape covering the incision. The baby was out. The little girl who had lived inside my ribs for thirty-two weeks was lying in a plastic box two floors above us, her lungs expanding on their own air because my mother couldn't bear the thought of a gift table being disorganized.

"Theo," I whispered. "The party. What happened after you carried me out?"

Theo reached down, picked up his glass of ice water, and held the plastic straw to my lips. I drank, the cold water stinging my throat before soothing the raw burn of the tube.

"I didn't stay to watch the dessert course," he said, his tone dry as paper. "But your brother-in-law-elect had a few thoughts. Mason followed us as far as the foyer. He told the valets that I was an aggressive lunatic who had ruined his fiancée’s engagement celebration. He told your aunt Clara that you threw yourself into the gifts because you were bitter that you didn't have an inheritance."

"He said that?"

"He said that to eighty people," Theo confirmed. "And your mother stood beside him and agreed. She told the guests that you had always suffered from borderline histrionic episodes whenever Bianca had a milestone. Then she asked the caterers to serve the beef tenderloin before the plates got cold."

I closed my eyes. The sheer, grotesque predictability of it didn't even surprise me anymore. It was the same playbook Renata had run when I made the dean's list at Northwestern and Bianca failed her driver’s license exam on the same afternoon; the same playbook she ran when my father died and she refused to let me speak at the funeral because "Naomi's grief is always so theatrical."

"And the car?" I asked.

Theo leaned back in his chair, picking up the heavy leather binder from the nightstand. His eyes, dark and rested despite having spent the night in an armchair, fixed upon the blue tab on page forty-eight.

"The 2024 Mercedes-Benz GLS 580," Theo murmured, his finger tapping the plastic tab with a slow, rhythmic cadence. "Sticker price: one hundred and nineteen thousand, four hundred dollars. Registered under a commercial vanity lease through Apex Capital Logistics."

He looked up at me.

"Do you know who owns Apex Capital Logistics, Naomi?"

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"No," I whispered.

"Your father did," Theo said. "Until October fourteenth of twenty-twenty-two. The day before he went into the hospice unit at Rush."

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