Chapter 6 - The Mother’s Reckoning
The confrontation with my mother did not take place in an office or across a kitchen island. It happened in the municipal cemetery on Washington Street, where Thomas Mercer had been buried beneath an unpolished granite marker three years earlier.
It was Friday afternoon. The sky was the color of zinc, heavy with the promise of late-August thunderstorms.
I knew she would be there. For thirty-six months, she had visited his grave every Friday at four o'clock, carrying a pair of small brass shears to trim the crabgrass around the edges of the stone.
I walked across the damp turf, my flat shoes sinking slightly into the sod.
She heard my footsteps and turned, her hand flying to her throat. She looked frail in her quilted vest, her shoulders curled inward as if she were trying to occupy less air.
"Leah," she said.
I looked down at the stone. *Thomas E. Mercer — Craftsman, Husband, Father — 1952–2020.*
"Did you think about him when you carried it down?" I asked.
She closed her eyes, two large tears spilling over her wrinkled cheeks. "Every single day since you came home, that’s all I think about. I haven't slept three hours together, Leah. My stomach is in knots. I can't eat."
"You made your choice," I said.
"It wasn't a choice!" she cried out, her voice thin and ragged against the cemetery trees. "You don't understand what it's like to watch your child be alone! Carol called me in July. She told me Ryan was going to leave you. She said he was terrified of you, that you were so cold, so distant, that you lived for your job while he was dying inside for a family!"
"And you believed Carol?"
"She’s his mother! What was I supposed to think? And then Audrey came to my house. She sat on my sofa, Leah. She sat right where you used to do your homework, and she cried, and she told me she was having Ryan’s baby. She said they were going to get married. She said you would survive it because you were strong, because you had your career, your money, your independence—but that she had nothing!"
The wind stirred the high branches of the cemetery oaks, dropping a scatter of dry leaves onto the grass.
"She told you I was strong," I said, "and you decided that meant I didn't bleed."
"No! I thought... I thought if we didn't fight it, if we helped them get settled, that the scandal would pass quickly. That the baby wouldn't grow up knowing its father had been dragged through mud. I wanted to protect the family, Leah!"
"Which family, Mom?" I asked, stepping closer to her, forcing her to look into my face. "Ryan’s family? Audrey’s family? Because you didn't protect mine. You took the last thing Dad built for me—the only thing in this world that represented the future I bled for—and you gave it to the woman who stole my husband so that Carol Barrett wouldn't have to feel uncomfortable at a baby shower."
She covered her face with her hands, sobbing uncontrollably.
"I made a mistake," she wept into her palms. "A terrible, terrible mistake. Please, Leah. You’re my only daughter. Don't leave me alone."
"Dad left you forty percent of his commercial real estate shares in the shop," I said, my voice completely devoid of mercy. "And he left sixty percent to Joe and me. Tomorrow, Nicole is filing the paperwork to partition the property. Joe is buying out your share."
She lowered her hands, her eyes wide with terror. "You're selling your father's shop?"
"Joe is keeping it," I said. "You won't have to manage it. You won't have to see the equipment. You’ll get a check for two hundred and ten thousand dollars. Take it. Move to Florida like you told Dad you wanted to do before he got sick. Go live near your sister in Sarasota."
"You're exiling me," she whispered.
"No," I said, looking back down at Thomas Mercer’s name cut into the granite. "You exiled yourself when you walked up my attic stairs with Ryan Barrett to pillage my nursery. I am simply closing the account."
I turned and walked away across the grass.
She called my name three times. Her voice was thin, desperate, carried away by the gathering wind that smelled of distant rain and falling barometric pressure.
I did not turn back.
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